For those that read this I just want to start with the biggest thank you possible to you all. 2019 went far above my expectations for the channel and the community and without the support from you all it would not have been possible. In fact, without the support that you gave me, 2019 could have been a very different year.
It was year two for me on this project and it had tons of ups and downs which made it a rollercoaster of a year. I don’t want to spend too much time on the negatives but they did play a big part of 2019 and affected me on a large scale at times. It started in March and just carried on through the year right up to New Years Eve, in the background I was dealing with people creating Discord Servers to just slander my name, I had people invade my privacy and share photos of me with my daughter in communities, some of these labelled me a peadophile, I had people create their own little GCROCK hate groups to try and destroy what we are building from within, and the amount of lies and fabricated stories I was reading about me was beyond a joke, it did all get a little too much for me. I am not sure if I have previously disclosed this but I am a person who suffers with depression and come around November time I had enough, I tried to continue on but it was just one more thing after another and I was even having conversations with my close friends about giving up. I had a little break and told people I was doing background stuff but I just needed to be away from it all.
The break did a world of good! I started seeing things a little more clearer and realised although all these bad things were happening it was just a tiny minority of people causing them, I learned that they were irrelevant and all I had to do was get rid of the toxicity that was built up around me and ignore the haters. I did this without a second thought as soon as the opportunity presented itself and brought in a bigger admin team to help me manage the community and the admins have been truly incredible! They have allowed me to actually get some background work done and most of December I have been doing that. As of today I have one days work left on my website, I have a Discord maintenance to do and then I get to go back to being a Youtuber which I really am looking forward to!
On reflection of 2019 the downs were destroyed by the ups! My dream came true and we have built a fantastic non-toxic gaming community of over 3000 people! I was told this wouldn’t be possible by many when I started but here we are showing them that a big non-toxic gaming community is possible. Our community brings people together, real life friendships are being made and our community is making a difference to peoples lives! I still have a dream to turn this into my full time job and I am more hungry for that than ever now with what we have got through in 2019, people also use this against me and say that subscribers and money is all I care about, but it really couldn’t be further from the truth. Yes, I want to go full time, I can’t tell you how hard all this is to deal with when I have a family and another full time job but I will never let my hunger to go full time on this take me away from my values and beliefs.
It is now time to discuss some stats, these stats below just go to show how far we have come in 2019 and they are unbelievable! On January 9th 2019 I set out targets for the year ahead and they were to reach 10k subscribers, do at least four 24-hour streams and to work harder than ever without burning out as much. We smashed all targets (although I did burn out a lot again) and none of it would have been possible without your support and commitment. I could say thank you a million times and it still wouldn’t be enough, I really do appreciate the people that get behind this. Lets look at stats!